Update !

My hair just a couple of days ago... It is soo much darker now :)

So it’s formal tomorrow…

I’m so lucky I have my bestfriend/boyfriend to go with (even though he is wearing this dorky guitar tie) but that won’t matter because for one night, one final night im not going to give a FUCK what anyone thinks of me.
Everything that has happened at school WILL NOT BOTHER ME :)
The only things I want from tomorrow night is LOTS of pretty pictures and to look way better than her.
Bring on tomorrow.

Other updates:
- I have also now completed all of my HSC exams and come mid december... the results..
- Martin & I have now been together 9 months! <3
- I dyed my hair dark :)

Right now, I can't be happier.

PEACE&LOVE.

since we're on the topic...

1. What I want to be?

A singer, real estate person or photographer.

2. What I am wearing right now?

School jersey & jeans.

3. My last night out in detail?

A lot went on but I don't remember a lot of it... hahaha ;D

4. First thing you thought about this morning?

Never getting out of bed again :/

5. One person from blogger i’d throw off a cliff, one i’d marry and one i’d fuck?

Uhm. No one.

6. Have you ever wished on a shooting star?

Amazingly enough I saw my first shooting star on the way back from dinner with Martin on our  6 month :D So that would be a, yes.

7. My longest relationship and who it was with?

3 years, with my ex ex.

8. What my last text message says?

"haha thanks :)  Woah serious? That sucks! Poor person :/ And wow, that  really does sum us up :D I love you soo much! :D xxxxx

9. What kind of person attracts you?

A Martin kind of person :)

10. Is it hard to make you laugh?

It really depends on my mood, but most of the time, no.

11. Do you act differently around the person you like?

I hope to think I don't, and i'm pretty certain I don't.

12. Does the last person you held hands with mean something to you?

Just a bit... Jokes! He means everything to me!

13. What’s stopping you from going for the person you like?

There isn't anything. Im going out with the person I love :)

14. Who would you like to see right now?

Martin.

15. Are you missing someone?

Yes. My grandma. R.I.P. </3

16. What I find attractive in boys/girls?

Personality & fresh breath.

17. Do you drink?

On occasion.

18. Is there anyone who doesn’t like you because of something you did?

Im sure there is. But I think it's to do with my honesty. Oh well.

19. The one person who’s arms I’d like to be in?

These questions are kind of repetitive... Anyways, yes, Martin's. lol.

20. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Most definitely!

21. If i’ve done something I regretted very much?

I try and make amends & take karma as it comes.

22. What was the last party I went to, and when will the next be?

Last party was just before holidays, next party is weekend after next.

23. The last time I felt jealous, and why?

I don't remember.. Im not that jealous of much.

24. Last person you hugged?

My dad.

25. Your last kiss?

Martin.

26. What you wear to bed?

Comphy, baggy pj pant and Martin's oversized jersey :) 

27. Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is?

TAKEN. <3

28. Picture of yourself?

Im sure you can find a couple on my blogger... haha :)

29. Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?

I sure have/am.

30. The reason behind my last break up?

He had bad breath and I didn't think of him as boyfriend material.

31. The last compliment that you’ve received?

I like that you're naturally pretty, funny, so nice. I love your photography ♥

32. My favourite actors/actresses?

I don't particularly have any favourites.

33. Celebrity crush?

Don't have one.

34. My favorite book?

I have a couple..

35. A famous person I’ve been compared to?

When I sung in front of people, I was compared to the singer Norah Jones.

36. The best thing that has happened to me this week?

I sung in front of people & made a career decision :D

37. Do you believe in abortion?

I believe it is completely up to the person considering getting one.

39. Something i’m currently worrying about.

School results. HSC.

40. Your own question that you want me to answer. 

What do you want to do with your life & where so you see yourself being in 10 years? :)

PEACE.X

Growing confidence.

Oh my goodness!

I just got the biggest confidence boost ever and I just thought I would share it with you guys!

Like, oh my goodness! This could be the beginning of something quite big :D

So as I may have mentioned in previous posts - i LOVE to sing. Singing to me has always been my dream career, you know when you are little and you want to be a princess or something, yeah? Well I have always wanted to be a singer/performer.

So anyways I have always just sort of sung at every possible chance, that im alone.

I have always had confidence issues that I got from my upbringing and so I have never thought it possible for me to have a chance at becoming a singer/performer.

BUT TONIGHT.....

Tonight Martin came over - he has musicians as parents and so he knows a thing or two about musical instruments, including singing. I never thought I would actually let him hear me sing but tonight I felt so comfortable with him that I did! It was SO nerve wracking!

I can't even put into words how amazed he told me he was about my singing capabilities, he said that he was really shocked that I could sing so well, and I couldn't be happier that I chose to sing to him!

Needless to say; I am over the FUCKING moon!

He gave me THE BIGGEST confidence boost and that's exactly what I needed.

This could lead to something very exciting!

OH MY GOODNESS!

Sorry I just really needed share this really positive moment!! :D

He Is The Best Thing To Happen To Me. Just saying..

Ok, so. Yes, I am negative a bit... but just to show you some positive things in my life, I thought I would share some of the insanely cute sms texts I get from him. He gives me a lot more strength then I could ever ask for, and this is how..

Hopefully more positive posts like this to come? I think so :)

DAY SEVENTEEN - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

Okay, I know I may mention him A LOT, and 6 months may not seem like a long time to some of you but he really has had a HUGE impact on my life, like you have no idea! Seriously this guy means HEAPS to me. Since meeting him and him asking me out my depression has subsided, I have more confidence and motivation, and he has helped me through SOO much including harassment/bullying.

i love you, bub! <3

DAY TWELVE - A picture of something you love.

Martin.

We may only have been together for almost 6 months but I love him so much! I could not imagine my life without him. He is amazing and the strongest thing in my life.

We are together all the time but we miss each other the minute we are apart, he is my best friend as well as my boyfriend :)