NEW BLOG!!

Hey there!


Just letting you guys know I have a new blog! Only this time the blog is 100% made up of MY photogrpahy :D


You should know how to get to it just click on 'view my complete profile' and go to the blog 'A world of photography' OR go to this website;

http://smalltowngirlphotography.blogspot.com/

I will still have this blog up and running as per usual but this one will become more of an actual writing blog and the other one will be solely dedicated to my photography :) 


Please check it out - you might actually like my photography :)


PEACE.X

He Is The Best Thing To Happen To Me. Just saying..

Ok, so. Yes, I am negative a bit... but just to show you some positive things in my life, I thought I would share some of the insanely cute sms texts I get from him. He gives me a lot more strength then I could ever ask for, and this is how..

Hopefully more positive posts like this to come? I think so :)

DAY TWENTY THREE - A picture of your favorite book(s).

The Diary of Anne Frank

Lauren Huxley - True Colours.

 About a girl who survived a horrific house robbery gone wrong.

A Child Called It. - Autobiography about the authors violent and messed up childhood.

Words to describe it - graphic but inspiring.

 

Cherub Series. - A fun series about child spies.

I have so many more favorite books but these are just a few :)

What is this?

Hey there.

So I thought I would write to you bloggers to add more variety to my blog.
Ok, so, my blog (as you may have noticed) is not always the happiest blog but I'm the kind of person who is going to tell it like it is with brutal honesty. Sometimes honesty isn't always the best thing to be but it does make you a better person, even if you are the only one to think so.
I don't know why I felt the need to say that but there you have it..
What I was actually going to say was that today I cried for the first time in 2 months. It's weird and I kind of felt embarrassed by it because I hadn't cried in so long - well it is a long time for me. But it wasn't just a random pity thought or anything, I actually had a breakdown and still feel myself breaking down :/
I just thought that I would tell you guys this cause most of the time I feel I don't express myself enough and I think it is important to share certain thugs with people. This may be to help yourself or even to help another without even knowing it - it may just be the reassurance that they need to know they aren't alone.
You see I feel alone a lot. Yes, I do have a loving,caring boyfriend but on the other hand I have an emotionally abusive (ex physically abusive) mother who I have to come home to everyday and deal with. Just like today.. I cane home to study and she started yelling at me telling me she is going to kick me out after I finish my schooling, and telling me day in day out that I should get a job, even though I'm trying to finish off my last semester of school. She never asks me about school,how it's going, how I'm coping... If she had she would of known that I'm struggling - especially with the lack of support. So yeah i feel alone, a lot.
I could sit here and continue telling you about my woes but in all honesty I think I will go have a little cry and go to sleep.
Goodnight bloggers - sorry for the negative stuff... :/

PEACE.X

DAY TWENTY TWO - A picture of something you wish you were better at.

Confidence.

I love to sing and I have a youtube channel but I wish I had more confidence and time to practice and perform. Would love to pursue a career in singing.

Onedayhopefully.

Peace.X

DAY TWENTY ONE - A picture of something you wish you could forget.

My 'childhood'.

Yes, this is a real picture, and yes, this is a picture of MY back.

Oh, and yes, those are hand prints.

DAY TWENTY - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.

One day I hope to travel THE WORLD.

A girl can dream big, right?
:)

PEACE.X

DAY NINETEEN - A picture and a letter.

Dear Grin,


I miss you soo much! I even cried today because I realized just how much I miss you :'/
This year it will be 4 years since you left us and moved on to a (hopefully) better life.
You were such an amazing person and an even better grandma - who spoilt us to bits!
I get really sad when I think about just how much you missed out on in my life. It makes me sadder to think you don't know the better person and young lady I have become :(

I hope wherever you are, you are proud of me.
I miss you so terribly and hate you were taken from us so young.
There have been a lot of times where I just wish you were here to cuddle up in bed with, eat lollies, watch your favorite crime shows, and just get advice, or even just have a big snuggle. I miss that. I miss you.


"Grin is the best in the world!"
Remember that afternoon? You kept bribing me to say you were better than Bec :D
I think you won. I miss those times.


Im sorry for the times I was a little brat and made you mad. I would trade anything to have just o n e  m o r e  d a y with you.

One day we will meet again and I will give you THE BIGGEST hug EVERR!
Until that day I just want you to know I love you FOREVER!


xxxx Laura.

DAY EIGHTEEN - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

People. people make me insecure.

DAY SEVENTEEN - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

Okay, I know I may mention him A LOT, and 6 months may not seem like a long time to some of you but he really has had a HUGE impact on my life, like you have no idea! Seriously this guy means HEAPS to me. Since meeting him and him asking me out my depression has subsided, I have more confidence and motivation, and he has helped me through SOO much including harassment/bullying.

i love you, bub! <3

DAY SIXTEEN - A picture of someone who inspires you.

Pink :)

DAY FIFTEEN- A picture of something you want to do before you die.

Road trip through all 50 states in America!
:D

DAY FOURTEEN - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.

Bec - My sister.

Things haven't been and aren't always peaceful between us but at the end of the day she is my blood and I still love her and would do anything for her.

<3

Hey Guys :)

Hey there.

This is just a quick blog to say sorry for not posting anything new up or replying to your comments. In not being a snob and I will get around to posting and replying it's just, as I said in one of my other blogs, I have gone back to school and have been doing at least 3 hours study of everyday and by the time I get around to getting on here it's usually late or I'm too tired :/
I promise once I get back into a routine I will start blogging again... If anyone actually reads my blog that is... Haha :)
Anyways I will start posting again as soon as I can :)

PEACE.X

DAY THIRTEEN - A picture of your favorite band or artist

Boyce Avenue.

Okay, so. Boyce Avenue is just one of my favorite music choices. I chose them for this because they do covers of all sorts of songs including some of my favorite artists :)

Finals.

Today is my final day of school holidays :(


From now on I will be so unbelievably busy with my last term at school. Ever... Unless I decide to go to university.
But anyways i'm bittersweet about it being my last term of school. 
Its a good thing because I really find school unpleasant and hate having to get up real early everyday and do the same old routine - day in and day out. Its a bad thing because school is all I have ever had, even though I didn't like it, and also because I have no idea what I want to do once I finish school.


mmmmm. chai latte :D

So this term I have, trial exams, graduation, sign out day, careers market. After this term the next time I will have to come back to school will only be for formal and the big, scary HSC (higher school certificate, or some people call it their high school diploma) exams. 


So, its a fairly big time for me right now..


It's a final term for a lot of things, you wouldn't think it but it's actually quite scary. I will be classifed as an adult soon and with finishing school comes more responsibility. I feel sort of unsure about everything now, I can't imagine how i'm going to feel when it gets to Friday, 23rd September, 2011 - last day of school + one week before I turn 18.


AAHHHHHHHH.

Anyways I just thought I would tell you guys a little about what is fast approaching in my life, you know, make this more of a blog rather than me uploading pictures all the time :)

PEACE.X

DAY TWELVE - A picture of something you love.

Martin.

We may only have been together for almost 6 months but I love him so much! I could not imagine my life without him. He is amazing and the strongest thing in my life.

We are together all the time but we miss each other the minute we are apart, he is my best friend as well as my boyfriend :)

DAY ELEVEN - A picture of something you hate.

Instead of a picture I will do a list..


- Bullying.
- Judgmental people.
- War - violence.
- Snobs.
- Bitching.
- Licorice.
- Bad decisions.


There are more but I will stop there :)

DAY TEN - A picture of the person you do/did the most ****** up things with.

Charlotte.
She used to be my best friend, for six years!
We haven't spoken for over a year. I still don't know what I did wrong, I miss her so much!

:'/

DAY NINE - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

I can't really do this one as I don't really have a person who has gotten me through the most. I tend to get through a lot of issues on my own.. That's not always a good thing as I do bottle up a lot of stuff, which bites me in the bum. 
I have been through a lot of therapists but I don't like them so I go back to bottling things up. 
SOO the moral of the story is that I don't have someone who has gotten me through the most.

PEACE.X

DAY EIGHT - A picture that makes you laugh.

This picture was taken of me (standing) and my friends on my 17th birthday. I was so hyped up that the entire day turned out well and this was one of the many silly photos of the day. It makes me laugh SO much :D

Just one of those random things..

Mucking around with friends.

RANDOM...

DAY SEVEN - A picture of your most treasured item.

I don't have a picture of it and it is stored away - as it is my most treasured item :)

...

I have a small, soft, toy duck that I was given on my first Easter. When I was little I slept with it every night! There was this one time where I left it at a hotel and so my dad called up and asked them to find it and keep hold of it for me until we went back and they did. When we went back to the hotel they gave me back 'duckie'. They had put him in a plastic bag and I was convinced that he had 'died', it took my dad 2 weeks to convince me 'duckie' was still alive.

I have so many memories with that duck! So it's not wonder I had to put him in storage otherwise there would be no 'duckie' left :D

Like to know a secret?

Hahaha. OMG!

You wanna know how much I love photography?
Well imma tell you anyways..
So I went to go see how many photos I have before I go deleting and whatnot and I kid you not I have...


9552! Photos on my laptop.
Holy Cow.


So now I must be off to sort out these photos.
If I find any good ones I shall put them up :D

Stay tuned!!

DAY SIX - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.

P!nk.

I would LOVE to trade places with her for a day because she is really inspirational and she has worked hard to get to where she is today. I would love to live a day in her shoes :)

DAY FIVE - A picture of your favorite memory.

One of my favorite memories was a family Christmas back in 2005. It was really hot so we played all day in the pool and ate some really good homemade food! :D

DAY FOUR - A picture of your night.

I love watching sunsets! You never know how pretty they will be - like this one! I took this picture when I was visiting my nan, it was an amazing sunset, SO COLOURFUL! :D

DAY THREE - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

I have WAY TOO MANY favourite shows :/
I prolly watch too much TV BUT I do enjoy reality shows more than any other genre :)

DAY TWO - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.

My Dad.

Sure we have had our ups and downs which eventually pushed us apart, but before it did he meant and still means everything to me. He is my hero and all I want to do is make him proud :/

DAY ONE - A picture of yourself with ten facts.

1. I lack the courage to do some of the most simple things.

2. My parents divorced when I was 2.

3. When im down I take lots of pictures of myself (with clothes on).

4. Ever since I was little I have wanted to be well known by many.

5. I hate my mum, but love my dad.

6. Im a very loud and bubbly person when I get to know someone.

7. I am a BIG mood eater, comes from my depression.

8. I am finding it really hard to tell people 10 facts about myself.

9. I cannot stand people who judge others without knowing them, especially if they judge them on their weight.

10. I am REALLY HONEST - I have lost 'friends' from my honesty.

Peace. xx

- 30 Dayss.

This is one of the... 30 Day Photo Challenges :)I will be doing it, obviously.
 

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts.

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

Day 04 - A picture of your night.

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with.

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.

Day 12 - A picture of something you love.

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.

Day 19 - A picture and a letter.

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.

Day 25 - A picture of your day.

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.

Day 31 - A picture of yourself.

A long awaited letter...

Dear person who stole my heart... then crushed it.


5 months and 1 day ago I made a decision - to move on and forget about you.


I didn't think I would have the strength, but I knew 4 years was too long to wait around for things to change, and trust me they were a LONG 4 years. At first I did not think that I could have a relationship with anyone else besides you and I hate you for that. 1 month into my new relationship I almost gave up, and that is your fault just as much as mine, you stole my heart and crushed it and I continued to fall for you, lucky I didn't end my new relationship. 
You always said next time will be better - "I promise I will pay more attention to you rather than my computer games." You lied.
Why I kept waiting around for you to show me that you loved me more than anything else, including STUPID computer games, I will never know. We both should of never tried having that relationship.

Just a quick catch-up for you...
I am now in a happy, strong and healthy relationship, with a truly amazing guy - whom I know won't screw me over and who truly DOES love me more than anything. You know what is also comforting to know? He actually has a future, which is more than I was able to say for you. 


HAPPY 5 MONTHS - M.F! <3

Day ONE - Smudge.

This is Smudge.
She is a Labrador X ...something that I do not remember.
In this photo I was just mucking around with the focus :)

Firstly.

Hey.
The girl above? Yeah, that's me.

My name is Laura and I love taking photos :)

The photos I take are usually either; still life, landscapes, or portraits.
Stay tuned for more photos...
Peace.